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Saturday, May 5 @2:48 pm

ZZZZZ...
it has a month since i put sth here...

Much has happened but i dunno how to write it all down...

OK. hmmmm

for NS life, my OC has changed. Turns out that LTA Chris Wong has a cancer stage 2 but it is cureable. So CO has given him a long break to undergo treatment and recovery. The new OC is a Lady but her working capabilities is on par with OC. She is LTA Fadilah. A scholar i have heard. And from now til OC recovers to the pink of health, my company will be taking PES (C) batches to relieve his load.

Z is slightly improving. I really hope that he does not give me a hard time for my last 6+ months. Anyway, a lot of the specs that i know are leaving by this year la... Me and harie will only be the ones left in the company by the end of the year. With the exception of OC. CSM is leaving on July, Wei De, Wei Shyan, Zeng all moving soon... Hai. Got a feeling that Viper company will not become what it is now in the future.

Really Stressed out manz...
I am really pissed off with my family. I get so stressed up in camp, i just want to relax and chill out at home. But they just treat me like dirt, like a maid. Asking me to do things cos others are "studying". Why cant they do it? i just dun understand y.

Just becos i ate two packets of instant noodles for breakfast they are condemning me like a leper. Just because i did not lose weight they say that i did not go and excercise and control my diet.

But in actual fact,
i am running EVERYDAY at night after i hard days work.
i am CONTROLLING my food intake.

Somtimes i just wished that they encourage me instead of just condemning me. just a few words of encouragement would mean so much to me...

I sit in one corner and when i think about all these, i just wanna cry but i dun want to let ppl see. Just because you see me cheerful everyday does not mean that i am REALLY happy...

hmmmmzzz..... I sometimes wished that i am just better off dead.

♥ there's not a place
in heaven that we cant reach

& PROFILE

Clement Ng
Twenty
First Cried on |22nd Dec 1987|
Capricorn
Singapore
Guy
SSA BVD1 DL
Current Location |NTU|
Band | MBSA, MSHSA, TPJCA, SSACYM, NTUSB |
Instrument - [T r u m p e t] |
[H o r n]
solesurvivor_87@hotmail.com
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& LIKES

| you | TPJC band | band music | -_- ZZzz... | darker colours | looking at the black box | S T O N E | peanut butter waffle | Cup noodles | Kway Chap | Fermented Beancurd | milk [esp. magnolia] | seafood | Almond Jelly | Ayumi | BoA | S.H.E. | Jay chou | Simple Plan [and many more] | spongebob | friends | *waving at the camera =p | billabong | ADIDAS | T R U M P E T [RAWKS!] |
& DISLIKES

| bootlickers | Squechy noises | Exams | Bitter stuff [exception of coffee, choc] | brown | "Fwens" whu backstab | Smoking | Bengs and lians | being ignored | the dark | cockroaches | ppl who think they are high and mighty when they are not
& WISHES

To be with u..
Better Trumpet Skils
Buy a new mouthpiece
driving license!!
Own a Mazda 2!

& Movies


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Credits: Feline.
& LINKS

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--> Michelle
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--> Boon Hwee
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--> MSSBA
--> Clara (sis)
--> Kenneth (cousin)
--> Christopher
--> Cindy
--> Xiao Quan (MBSA)
--> Benny (MBSA)
--> Danny (MBSA)
--> Jie Yuan (MBSA)
--> Apple
--> Shaha
--> Seah Wei Liang
--> Franklin
--> Dr. Lee Tian Tee




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other links

--> Hotmail
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--> sfogs.com


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& CREDITS

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& HEARTSONGS

"My tears are turning into time,
i'm wasted tryin to find a reason to say goodbye,
cant' live without you,
cant't breathe without you,
i dream about you...

honestly tell me that it's over.."


"Dear heart,
i met a girl...
now, prepare to shatter.."




"Have u ever missed someone
and felt terrible
because u think tat he/she doesn't miss u?

Missing someone is a terrible but at the
same time,
sweet feeling.
U will be sitting around wondering if u
meant
anything to him/her.
Thinking if he/she ever cares about u.

Rushing to the phone once it rings
hoping that it's
him/her.
Looking out of the window hoping that
he/she will
surprise u by appearing downstairs.

Sitting in front of the television but
thinking of
her
missing the final episode of your
favourite show.

Laying on your bed, thinking of the last
time u wen
out together.

Thinking of how nice it will be to sit
under the stars
again, talking about everything, your
dreams,
plans, future.

Logging on to the internet hoping to see
him/her
online.

When u realise that he/she isn't online
and did not
return your page, u will start worrying if
he/she is
okay.

Missing someone is a way of growing up i
guess.
It exposes u to loneliness.
It teaches u how to cope with being
lonely and let u
know that there is actually a feeling
known as
emptiness.
Sometimes it feels good to miss someone.
U know that u really care and u indulge
in the
feeling of loving/caring for him/her.
But missing someone and not knowing if
he/she is
feeling the same is terrible.
U feel as if u are being left alone.
So if u miss someone, tell him/her and
let them know.
At the same time, ask if they miss u.
Don't let the feeling of missing someone
become jealousy or paranoid.
If u are the one being missed and u know
it, let the other party know.
if u miss him/her too, tell them.
Don't let them wait






POP/ORD song:

We came as civilians
To be a soldier
Been through hardships in life
But this feels forever

We're surrounded by other soldiers
From all walks of life
This is tough for us to face
But we ain't got any choice

Now we see all the soldiers
Leaving ahead before us
We just have to say
A final farewell

Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye
Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye

For Brothers in Arms
Friends For Life
Semper fie
Do or Die

Now we see all the soldiers
Leaving ahead before us
We just have to say
A final farewell

Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye
Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye
Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye
Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye
Goodbye...